Why me and not you?

IF YOU HAVE NEVER FAILED, YOU HAVE NEVER LIVED!

(Famous failure, I encourage to watch this video, its a pile of motivation!)


It was a blankety night, nothing but chills over my body. I tried hard to get rid of the memories but everytime I went past them, more they got closer to me. Wondered then, why me then?

I gazed at the streets, a group of guys n gals walking past the lampost, chatting, laughing, basically having fun..unlike me! Why was I in a situation where nothing seemed right. I felt jealous of them, though didn't want to accept. Hmm, a typical me.. I cant accept the truth, I like to live in a reality of my own..which by all means doesnt exist.

Maybe I am loner.. maybe I am someone like you.. but if I could ask one thing, it would be.. Give me my life back with passion, enthusiasm, and love.. I want to live.

Ever wondered what those cancer patients must be going through?  or maybe people who have Terminal illnesses. They plan to live, yet hate the thought of not being able to. Yet we have a life by god's grace and plan on to end it.. Indeed, how stupid of us :)



-When all else is lost, the future still remains-

Musings of a fairy

 

What are fairies? Who are they? I wondered when I was a child of aged 7. Thought and thought, one day.. I met one. Beautiful as a jasmine, delicate like a heart and a loveable princess. I met her, she didn’t speak, looked confused. I approached her.. she went across. I opposed her, she backed me like the heaven’s pouring rain on a meshed dried land. I thought she smiled at me, looked into the deeper me and suddenly, looked away. And after the passionate silence, I heard her say.. “ You are as beautiful  as the sun-rise, as fresh as a dew, as glowing as a supernova.” I looked dazzled and approached her, but she ignored me and went on. “ My mate, you will end up somewhere of a place made just for you. That one person loves you, needs you, feels you and he takes care of you. I made that place for you, in return, i ask for something.” It came as a volcano, my walls drenched inside my aorta, blood flow stopped and I wanted to cry. I said, “ Ask my life, I am ready to give it, but take me away with you, I no more have a desire to live in a fake place.” She smiled like a rose revealing its inner secrets to the sun. “ You will have to make three ways in order to come with me.” I asked, “ What are the three ways lovely lady?”, sweat dwelling within my body. “ First make a way to your heart like the rivers make to meet the oceans, second; make room for love, third; make a path to heaven and I will take you with me, I promise.”  I stared at her in amusement thinking what a crazy woman she was.

I felt someone pinch me on my veins, my reflex system responded with a start until it was successful in waking me up. It was mom. She smiled at me while picking up my thrown jeans and a striped t-shirt that I wore last morning. I was still thinking about my dream and about the fairy. I thought again, what had she meant about making a way to the heart. I looked at me, felt my heart, it knew what I was thinking, but that didn’t help me answer my thoughts. Instead, I thought about the other way, “ make room for love” I echoed her. But I am too small for love, I said to my self. My head was aching, I was having a battle with my brains and it took me to the third thought.. “ make a path to heaven” , blue fairy had said. For what I knew at the age of seven was people die and go to heaven if they were good people. It ached more the more I thought. After sometime, a calming hand dropped on my forehead, saying, “ I love you” . I looked up, saying, “ I love you too mom.” with a smile.

 

 

The Lesson that i learned at the age of 15: Click here, cause its something you love :)

 

Make way to your heart:  Your heart knows everything, it knows the future, the past, the present and it knows you. Make way to know your heart, it will guide you making your way to your love, build a hope for the heart to trust you. If it doesn’t trust you, you wont ever find a way to get to the one you love. The heart then guides you to heaven by obeying it forever. It will trust in you, if you trust in it.